so lazy

Ok I totally have neglected my new blog. I have no excuse lol except that I've been bumming it up on the couch engrossed in books that I didn't get to read during the year. I do lots of nonpharmacy related reading in the summer. Anyways on to the more important book, the bible. I'm sitting here in the dark because christopher is asleep and I'm reading off my ipod and using my flashlight app to read my actual bible. I like having the bible app on my ipod but you have to tell it where to go and sometimes I find randomly opening the bible to a page is more helpful. I don't always know where to go. So the solution is to use both. And I'm too lazy to lug the laptop into a different room so this will have to suffice. Anywho, I'm babbling. Now to the point. I don't have a particular topic today like I did in my last post. I was a little ticked that day. But instead just wanted to share a few verses that I am currently reading. They are from Isaiah 53.

5 But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.
7 He was oppressed, and he was afflicted, yet he opened not his mouth: he is brought as a lamb to the slaughter, and as a sheep before her shearers is dumb, so he openeth not his mouth.

Sometime it's difficult to imagine what Jesus had to go through, what sacrifice he made. I think about how I would have reacted in that situation. I probably would have gone all matrix on all those people instead of letting them beat me, spit on me, and crucify me. I guess it's a good thing I'm not God lol. But he says later in Isaiah 55:8 for my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways.

He had to do it to save us. But the thing that breaks my heart the most is what he did say on the cross. Father forgive them, for they know not what they do. (Luke 23:34). He wasn't bitter. He didn't say destroy these idiots. He asked for forgiveness on their behalf.

How can people deny the love that he has? Why carry around all the heavy loads and worries. Let him take it away! I don't understand why people don't want to go to him. I didn't for many years though he tried to call me many times, and now I can't fathom not having him in my life. He's real and I have so many stories to share that's happened to me personally that I will someday on here. He would never force someone to serve him. He wants people to serve him because they love him.

Matthew 11:28-30 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

Lord, I thank you for the sacrifice you made for me. I thank you for calling me out of the darkness I was in. And I thank you for always being there for me, just a prayer away:)




God Bless!